Kylie’s Blessing

December 16th, 2013

On December 1st, Nick was able to give Kylie Rose and name and a blessing at our church. It was such a sweet experience. Kylie looked beautiful in her white dress and we were blessed to have a lot of family and friends attend. I loved hearing the things Kylie was blessed with. I was especially happy when Nick said she would be blessed to have a special relationship with me as well as her sister. Another thing that stood out to me, was when she was blessed with patience. She will definitely need that in our crazy family! I, of course, cried during the blessing. I cried because of the spirit I felt, and also because it was hard for me knowing that this would be the last time Nick would get to give one of our babies a baby blessing. It’s weird that we are moving on from the “creating our family” stage of our lives.
Kylie Rose, your family loves you very much and we are so grateful to have you in our home. Our family just wasn’t complete before. You are such a sweet baby and we wouldn’t trade you for the world. Thanks for letting me be your mommy!

Thanks for Thanksgiving

December 16th, 2013

For Thanksgiving this year, we were able to have some of Nick’s family come stay at our house and celebrate with us. His parents, Michelle, Camden, BreLeigh, Steph, Josue, Connor, and Tyler all came up for the weekend. It was the first time we had ever done Thanksgiving dinner at our house and we had a lot of fun! The kids really enjoyed having their cousins here to play with them, and our guests enjoyed snuggling with Kylie. On Thanksgiving day, we had a fabulous dinner. The next day, the Toyns did some shopping and we enjoyed hanging out and watching movies. On Saturday, we took the kids to the mall to visit Santa, and that evening, I taught Steph and Michelle how to knit so they could make stockings for their families. On Sunday, Nick blessed Kylie at church.
We had such a great weekend. I’m so thankful for my family; my own little family as well as our extended family. I’m thankful for all of the blessings that I have. Life is a little crazy right now with 5 kids ages 6 and under, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love watching my kids grow and learn new things. I am so thankful for my husband who works hard for our family. I love him more than anything is this world and I constantly wonder what I’ve done to deserve such an amazing man. I’m thankful for my Savior and the knowledge that I have of the Gospel. Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!


December 16th, 2013

On November 19th, Brennan had his tonsils and adenoids taken out. Nick’s mom and Grandma Joy came to help with the other kids so I could focus on taking care of Brennan and I could get some rest and continue healing from my c-section. It was wonderful to have them here. They did laundry, cleaned our house, and played with the kids. It was sad to see them go.
The night before the surgery, I fed Kylie at 9:00, and I had to wake her up the morning of the 19th so we could be on time for the surgery! I can’t believe that our 12 day old baby slept through the night! As we drove to the surgery center, I could tell Brennan was a little nervous, but he was trying to be brave. We got all checked in, then a nurse came and took us back to get him all ready for the procedure. She had Brennan change into a gown, which he thought was funny, and then she had him decorate his anesthesia mask with stickers. He was so excited! At this point, he thought this was the best day ever. The doctor came in and asked if Nick and I had any questions, and they took Brennan back for surgery.
Nick and I had brought work to do while we waited, and it seemed like we had just gotten started before the nurse came out and told us the surgery was over and it had gone really well. I got to hold Brennan for a few minutes while the nurse made sure he could keep some food and water down and then we were headed home. It was so much faster than we had expected and Kylie slept though the whole thing!
Brennan was in a lot of pain for a few days, but I was really impressed about how hard he tried to be tough. The worst pain was probably a week after the surgery when his scabs sloughed off. He just kept saying “I don’t like surgery. I never want to do that again.” It broke my heart and I was relieved when he started feeling better. Within 2 weeks, he was back to his normal self and I’m hoping he will start to get more rest now that his tonsils aren’t obstructing his breathing anymore.

Holding Brennan after his surgery.

Holding Brennan after his surgery.

Kylie Rose Toyn

November 17th, 2013

On November 7, 2013 at 1:54 pm, our fifth and final baby made her way into the world, weighing in at 7 lbs. 10 oz. She measured 19 inches long. It was such a wonderful day for our family. My c-section was originally scheduled for November 4th. When my doctor told me I was being pushed back 3 days because of scheduling conflicts, I was very upset. I cried the rest of the day. See, about 3 months ago, my pelvis separated further than it is supposed to. As a result, I had been in a tremendous amount of pain. It hurt to walk, stand, sit, pretty much do anything. I got a little relief when I laid down, but then when I’d have to roll over, I’d have to be very careful or my pelvis would actually pop and cause excruciating pain. So, by the end of the pregnancy, I was ready for it to be over. I knew this would be my last pregnancy, so I tried my best to enjoy feeling the last baby kicks and hiccups while I waited for the 7th to come. Before I knew it, the day was here. We got up and went through our normal Thursday routine. We got kids ready for school and dropped the boys off at the bus stop. Then, we dropped Emma off at preschool and took Austin down to my mom and Lynn’s house. At that point, it was time to head to the hospital and check in.
We checked in, I got changed into my lovely gown and then we waited for what seemed like an eternity. Nick and I aren’t used to just sitting around doing nothing so it felt like time was almost standing still. Then, the nurse came in and let us know that the Dr. was running late. We probably should have expected that. She was an hour late when she delivered Austin too. Finally the Dr. arrived at the hospital and I was wheeled back to the operating room. There was a rush of mixed emotions. I was about to see my little girl. Excitement. This was the last time I would welcome a sweet little angel into this world. A little sadness. I was wondering if I’d get sick after the c-section and throw up for hours afterward like I did when Austin was born. Nervousness. I was about to be a mother of 5. GRATITUDE. Amid all the emotions, I think I was able to remain pretty calm. Nick, was of course, my rock. He was there for me every second that he was allowed to be, asking if he could do anything for me or get me anything. I’m always his first priority and I appreciate him so much. He wasn’t allowed in the room as they gave me the spinal, but my nurse (who I went to high school with) was very good and helped me stay calm. After the anesthesia was administered, the Dr. came in and after a quick check to make sure I was numb (phew!) she started cutting and shortly after that we heard some very loud crying. She was here. Our family was finally complete. The first thing the Dr. said when she pulled Kylie out was “Wow! She has a lot of black hair!” I was expecting her to be bald, so this was a fun surprise. After cleaning up the baby, the nurse handed her to Nick and he brought her over to me. She was perfect.
The next 2 days in the hospital seemed to last forever to me. It was hard having the kids only be able to come for a little bit at a time. Then, it was hard to have them there because they would get bored so easily with nothing to do. The Dr. told me I could stay anywhere from 2-4 days, depending on how I was feeling. I told the staff that I wanted to go home as early as I could on Saturday, and they were all surprised. They said I was doing remarkably well recovering from the c-section and they were surprised at how well I was able to get around, so they said I could go home when I wanted to. My mom and Lynn met us at our house with our 4 “big kids” and a welcome home banner that the kids made. They were so excited to have Kylie and me home, it melted my heart.
Today, our little Kylie Rose is a week old, and I can’t believe how fast the past week has flown by. She has been wonderful. The last 2 nights, she has only gotten up to eat once. Last night, she got up to eat at 2 and then slept until 8 this morning! All the kids adore her and are adjusting well to their new roles in the family. I feel so blessed to have these five little bedlam-ites in our home. I can’t imagine my life without any of them. I feel so grateful that my Heavenly Father has allowed me to be a mother and that He has sent me the 5 spirits that He did. I also couldn’t ask for a better husband and father for my children, than Nick. Nick has been so busy this week taking care of me, the kids and the house. He is amazing. I’ve had so much help from people at church bringing in meals, my mom watching the kids and running them around, and from other family member helping me with the kids. I feel very blessed right now.

Still 4 Weeks Left/Just 4 Weeks to Go!

October 8th, 2013

I couldn’t decide what to title this post because there are times right now that I think I will be pregnant forever, and other times when it feels like this baby will be here before I know it! A couple months ago, my pelvis separated further than it is supposed to, and since ten, I’ve been in excruciating pain. I can’t really describe how it feels. It just hurts. It hurts a lot. It hurts to walk, it hurts to sit. There is a little relief when I lay down, but I have to be super careful when I roll over that I move my legs at the exact same time. If I fail to do so, my pelvis pops, and the pain is so intense, it’s hard not to cry. Nick cringes when he hears the popping, and he feels bad there is nothing he can do to help. Because of the pain, I’m having a hard time keeping up on things around the house. I try to tell myself to take it easy and not worry about the things that don’t really matter. But, even then, there is still a lot to do when you’re a mother of 4 little kids. So, I do the best I can, and hope that it is good enough for now. I have a c-section scheduled for 4 weeks from yesterday, and I’m hoping the pain gets better after delivery. I just can’t wait to meet our last little baby! I love being a mom, and I really love little babies. There is just something so amazing about holding a newborn.
In the last couple of weeks, I’ve been able to get a few projects done, despite being in so much pain. I knitted hats for all of the kids. I’ve never knitted hats before, and I was pleasantly surprised with how they turned out. Brennan and Brayden were so excited about their hats, they wanted to wear them to school when it was still 75 degrees outside! I’ve gotten baby clothes washed, the crib cleaned and set up, bibs and burpcloths washed, boy clothes sorted (we have 8 bins of clothes we can get rid of!), and swings ready to set up. I was also able to finish knitting the baby’s blanket. I really wanted to try a new pattern that I’d never tried before, but was hesitant. Nick encouraged me to try it and told me he knew I could do it. With a lot of encouragement from him, I decided to try it and I’m so glad I did! I love how it turned out. It’s my favorite knitting project thus far. The pattern is called “entrelac” and it looks like pieces of knitting woven together, but it’s all one piece. After over 100 hours of knitting, the knitted part was finally finished. I blocked it, and then had my mom help me put some soft minky backing on it and finished it off with pink binding. It is so cute and extra comfy. I love it and I’m so grateful to have a husband that believes I can do hard things! I don’t have pictures of the completely finished project yet, but I’ll have to put some up when I do. I also cute off 8 or 9 inches of hair on Friday! It’s kind of a tradition for me to chop off my hair around the time I have a baby. It’s just easier to take care of. I still have a few projects to finish, but hopefully I’m at a point where if the baby comes, we are mostly prepared for her. So, here’s to hoping the next 4 weeks go by quickly and the pain disappears shortly after that!

35 weeks pregnant

35 weeks pregnant

My knitting helper.  She's so cute!

My knitting helper. She’s so cute!

The blanket-almost finished.

The blanket-almost finished.

May-September 2013

September 30th, 2013

I’m way behind on blogging, so I’m going to do a quick catch-up post and if I find time later, I’ll add more blogs from the summer.  Highlights from the last few months include:

  • Brennan and Brayden finished up kindergarten.  They had a little ceremony on the last day.  They had such a great year, and really enjoyed learning new things.
  • We found out we are having a baby girl!  I was really surprised.  I thought for sure this was another boy, which was just fine with me, but we are so excited to welcome another little princess into our family.  (I think Emma is the most excited!)
  • Brennan and Brayden celebrated their 6th birthday in June.  I can’t believe how fast the time goes!  They’re going to be grown up before I know it, and I’m just not ready for that!  The boys each got a gerbil for their birthday and they are enjoying having pets.
  • Doug got engaged in July!  We are excited to go to his wedding in November.  He proposed on the blue turf at BSU.
  • In July, we went on an amazing vacation to the Oregon Coast with my mom and Lynn, my siblings and their spouses.  I could do 7 different posts and an entire scrapbook just on this vacation.  We had such a fun week and wish we could go back!  We played at the beach, went to the Seaside Aquarium, bought taffy, went on some fun hikes, saw lighthouses, ate great food, and so many more fun things!  Thanks, Mom and Lynn!
  • The day before school started, Brennan broke his arm.  It’s our first broken bone, and I’m kind of surprised it took 6 years for it to happen.  The boys had been helping me out in the morning by getting Austin out of his crib.  Brennan got him out that morning and while Brennan was climbing out of the crib, he slipped and landed on his arm.  The scream that came out of him was different than any scream I’ve ever heard from him before.  Of course, Nick was out of town that day.  I decided to take him to Urgent Care, and sure enough, he had a buckle fracture.  He had a cast on for 4 weeks, and just got it off last week.  Hopefully, we are done with broken bones for another 5 years :-)
  • In August, Brennan and Brayden started 1st grade!  They were so excited that they got to go to school ALL day, eat lunch at school, and ride the bus.  They are having a great time.  They are going to a new school this year.  It is called Barbara Morgan STEM Academy.  It is a magnet school and their emphasis is science, technology, engineering and math.  The boys’ favorite class is their STEM class.  They get to do experiments and lots of hands-on building activities.  They are both thriving and I’m proud of all their hard work.
  • Emma started pre-school and ballet in September.  She has enjoyed both a lot.  I was afraid, she would cling to me and be scared to go into school and dance class, but she hasn’t had any problems at all.  In fact, last week when I was dropping her off at school, she told me she wanted me to stay in the car so she could walk into school by herself.  Emma amazes me with how quickly she catches on to things and how much she loves to learn.  I’m pretty sure she will be reading soon!
  • Brennan and Brayden started playing soccer in September.  They are working really hard and Brennan even scored his first goal last Saturday!
  • In between all these big occasions, the kids and I had a lot of fun playing in the backyard and going to parks and the library with Grandma Watson.  There was also a LOT of time spent inside watching movies since I was really sick.

There were days this when I thought summer was going to last forever.  I think most of that was because I was so sick.  However, looking back, it did go by pretty quickly.  We just have 5 more weeks until our little princess is born and we can’t wait to meet her!  We are excited for what the rest of the year will bring!

Mother’s Day

May 29th, 2013

Mother’s Day was great again this year. I love having a day set aside to celebrate womanhood. The day before Mother’s Day, Nick took me out on a date to eat some dinner and to get a few new maternity clothes. After 4 pregnancies, my clothes are pretty worn out, and I was feeling like I had nothing presentable to wear. It was so sweet and thoughtful of Nick to think to do that for me! The next morning, since our church time just changed from 9 am to 11 am, Nick let me sleep in. I have been so tired during this pregnancy, I will take any chance that I get to sleep in or take a nap. Then, Nick made me breakfast. As a special present, the baby actually let me keep the food down! Then, Nick and I got our kiddos ready for church. I asked Nick to take a few pictures of the kids and I before church, and I love how they turned out. I think they really show my kids’ personalities and their adorable-ness (that’s a word, right?). The kids were so sweet all day. They kept telling me that they loved me and they hoped I had a good “Mommy’s Day”. Nick made dinner that evening and we had my mom and Lynn, Shauna, Doug, and Doug’s girlfriend, Lauren over to eat. The company was great and so was the food!
I am so grateful for the opportunity that I have to be a mom to my five beautiful children. I say 5, because the baby in my belly is as much a person as I am. He/she has a tiny, but functioning heart, a brain, and everything else that makes someone human. These little souls have already taught me so much. Each of them has so much to offer this world. They have unique qualities and talents that will help them to achieve great things if they so choose. Thank you to all the people in my life that have helped and will continue to help me raise them. I couldn’t ask for better people in my life.




The First Trimester-A Rough Start

May 6th, 2013

Today begins my second trimester with baby #5! I’m so excited because I have been sicker this time than I have been with any of my other pregnancies. I don’t expect to be feeling all better now that the second trimester has begun, but it means I’m a third of the way through, so I’m that much closer to meeting this little one. I thought that this pregnancy would fly by since I have 4 small children at home and I’m super busy. However, most days, I take the twins to school, come back home and lay on the couch while Emma and Austin watch tv. Then, I go pick the boys up, get the kids some lunch, and lay down (and usually fall asleep) while the kids watch tv, or play outside it it’s nice. If I’m not laying down, it’s because I’m throwing up. I don’t get anything done because I’m throwing up so much, I just don’t have any energy. If I do have a good day where I’m not throwing up, I try to get some work done around the house, and that makes me throw up! It’s been frustrating and difficult, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I get to bring someone into this world. Give them life. What an amazing gift!
Even before we knew we were expecting, Nick and I had a feeling we would be having another boy, and Emma would remain our one and only princess. Well, last week at my doctor appointment, my doctor and I both thought we saw a little sign of this baby being a boy. It would be really early to be able to tell the gender, but my doctor said she is 90% sure we are having another boy! I’m very excited! Now, before you start feeling bad for Emma, just think about how spoiled the little lady is going to be. She gets to be her daddy’s only princess. She has her own bedroom and bathroom. If this is a boy, she will have 5 tough bodyguards if you count her dad. No need to feel sorry for that one. She’s got the life!
Nick and I couldn’t be more thrilled to be adding another child to our family. A friend from growing up recently made a comment that people with kids shouldn’t talk about their children, because that is not an interesting topic and people don’t really care to hear about them. I got a little offended. Does me being a stay-at-home mom to 4 (almost 5) kids make me boring? Maybe to some. I don’t care. My family is my life, and I will not apologize for that. I know that we are here to form families and to learn. I have learned more by being a mom than I learned in all my years at school, even while earning 2 college degrees. I intend for my family to last forever. That being said, what else should I really be concerned with? I can’t take another career or money with me to the other side. I can take my family. Family-my husband and children, as well as mine and Nick’s extended families-is all that matters. I want all of them to be together with me forever. I would do anything for any of them. I will talk about my family, just as all people talk about things that matter to them. If you don’t like it, tough. Don’t read this. This isn’t written with the intent of entertaining anyone. It is written for my children, so they have a record of our family history. I hope my family members all know how important they are to me. Love you all!



Baby #5 Is On The Way!

April 3rd, 2013

Nick and I were excited to find out last month that we are expecting another baby! We were excited to tell all of our family and friends, but wanted to wait until after we had an ultrasound done. Last week, we went to the doctor to see our baby for the first time. I wasn’t as far along as I had originally thought, but I was far enough along that we could see our baby’s heartbeat. The miracle of life never ceases to amaze me. I sat there in awe staring at my little bundle of joy. If my doctor hadn’t delivered my last baby and met my other children before, she probably would have thought this was my first pregnancy. It’s just so amazing to me how life is created. How our Heavenly Father allows us to be a part of creation. I feel very fortunate to be able to be a part of that. I also feel guilty sometimes, because I know there are so many wonderful people out there that aren’t able to have children. That breaks my heart, and the only thing that comforts me about that is that I know some day, they will all have a chance to have children.
Well, the baby looked healthy and strong, so the next thing to do, was to tell our 4 children the big news. We sat them down and got out the video camera so we could record their reaction. I had a made a big sign that said “Mommy has a baby in her tummy!!!” I told Brennan and Brayden to read what the sign said. I think my handwriting needs some work because they couldn’t figure out the word “baby”. They kept saying things like “bag” and “boy”. It was hilarious. After they finally figured out what the sign said, Nick asked them what they thought about it. Brennan said “But, you really don’t.” He wouldn’t believe us until we showed him the sonogram. Oh, my little doubter. Once they saw proof that there really was a baby in my tummy, they were all jumping up and down with excitement. They can’t wait to have another little baby around and neither can I. I love babies!

After we told the kids the big news, Nick and I spent the night making a little video of the kids’ response and we used that to tell our family members the news. Most of them were surprised, but excited, and it was so fun to tell everyone. I’m so glad I don’t have to keep it a secret anymore. I’m so bad at keeping secrets!

We have had a lot of questions about the pregnancy so I’m going to answer those here for anyone that may be wondering:
1. Was this pregnancy planned?
Yes. We were ready to have baby number 5. A lot of people have been surprised because they think the baby and Austin will be very close in age. They will be almost 23 months apart, which I think is perfect.
2. When is the baby due?
The official due date is November 15th. I will have a c-section and my doctor plans to do that on November 8th unless I go into labor sooner than that.
3. Are you going to have more children?
No. This is our last baby. If I could stay young and had endless finances, I would have TONS of kids. However, I think it’s important to be able to afford the kids you have, and 5 kids come with a lot of financial obligations. Cars, college, weddings, etc. Also, I just turned 30. I know that isn’t very old, but having 5 kids in 6 years adds a couple decades to my age, I believe. I’m getting tired. Therefore, I will be getting my tubes tied the same day as my c-section.
4. Are you hoping the baby is a girl?
Many people have asked us this, because we only have 1 girl and 3 boys. The answer is no. I think this baby is a boy (of course I’m usually wrong) but we will be so thrilled with whatever baby our Heavenly Father has sent us. He always knows better than I do. I just can’t wait to find out who is coming into our family!
5. Have you been sick?
Yes! Early mornings have been the worst. I have anti-nausea medication, but it only works some of the time. I’m hoping the sickness lets up by the second trimester, but until then I’m just grateful that I don’t have hyperemesis gravidarum, like some people do. I don’t know how people make it through that, and those that suffer through that really inspire me.

Sorry I don’t have any pictures to show. I’ll have to get the sonogram scanned in soon, and I’ll have to get Nick to take some belly pics in the near future. Thank you to everyone for their love and support with the pregnancy. I’m so excited to be able to bring another little one into the world!


March 13th, 2013

Last Saturday, my sister had volunteered to watch the kids so Nick and I could go out to dinner. I was so excited to get out! Well, Saturday came, and Shauna was sick. My mom and Lynn stepped in to watch the kids and I couldn’t have been happier. I was in need of a break. We got to dinner, and things seemed to be going ok. Then, our waitress brought our food, and before I could even take a bite, Nick asked for the check. I couldn’t think of any reason he would be doing that other than the fact that I had become old and boring! We drove home, and my house was filled with many wonderful people that I love. My tricky, tricky husband had pulled off a surprise party for me. I had a great evening chatting with friends and eating yummy treats. There were people from church, family, and as a special surprise, Nick had stolen my phone and contacted my best friend from growing up and invited her to the party. She was the first person I saw when I walked in the door, and to say I was surprised would be a serious understatement. I’m so thankful to everyone that took the time to come celebrate with me. I really did feel loved. I hope you all know how much I love and appreciate you and all you do for me.